i have so many thoughts for my birthday in 2006..

initially...
is it true that as people grow older, they tend to be less excited about their birthdays? increasingly, it seems to be just another day, rather than a day of significance. could it be the maturing of the state of mind, the increasing level of skeptism and decreasing ability to be excited about something or perhaps, the lack of want to emphasize the advancement of age? the lack of excitement about my bithday is reinforce by my indifference to whether there is cake, and my reaction to my mum when she ask me what i want for present, and my reply is simply, actually, no need anything. so different the reply is, compared to 2 years ago, where i will jump at the chance to ask for something exciting, and maybe even fantasize about the flavour of my birthday cake. perhaps because it reminds me that i am no longer a child. the difference between 21 and 22 is not just 1..being 21 gives you an excuse to be childish, to lapse from occasional irresponsibility, as its just the onset of adulthood. however, being 22 is entirely different. no longer is any excuse valid, no longer will people condone anything less than maturity.
however,there is an element of contradiction in my way of thinking. however indifferent i am to the actual birthday, i am still disappointed when no friends ask me out to celebrate my birthday.

on approaching the actual day...
i began to look forward as it also signifies the coming of the weekend. somehow i managed to work up an enthusiasm when ange invited me out..then another group asked me out for a little celebration...and lunz asked me out on monday..my dad also promised to treat the family to something good. i took the opportunity to suggest eating at a restaurant my mom was dying to eat. however, i was suddenly "un-invited" for my birthday celebration..and i was not even informed about it..somehow after that i became very disappointed..felt unimportant..insignificant..so i decided to take initiative and invited people out to celebrate my own birthday (sound desperate..but i guess i really felt so?)..heng they decided not to be zhong se qing you for once and agreed to go shopping with me..

wednesday..
its mambo night, and ladies night at dbl o..and being the greedy girls we are, we went dbl o to drink ourselves silly before heading to zouk..i guess my stomach was q empty, so i was kinda tipsy and couldnt stop laughing even before exiting dbl o..zouk was like a ghost town though it was already close to midnight and only 2 very loyal mambo fans were on the dance floor. there was virtually no queue and we got in pretty quick. i THINK. i was reallyreally walking funny by then..however we HAD to work off the alcohol and got on the dance floor. halfway through it became q packed adn we began to have loads of fun. the music was really enjoyable and we dance like crazy. to xue, the high point of the night was seeing chen hanwei i guess. somehow shes super excited..

friday..
went shopping with xue and yan..then jon and colin asked me out for dinner and drinks! make me so happy..at least some friends care? however i had a super big headache abd irritable temper, thanks to the low mood and the effects of the alcohol really added to that and magnified it 10 times. but still, it was an enjoyable evening for me, coz i felt like i have friends and that they made an effort for me.

saturday..
ange invited us to the motorola black show(some fashion show) and though we're entitled to a drink each, ange and i were like drinking drop by drop. somehow felt real turn off by the alcohol. so in the end CJ zuan dao..he had 3 housepours. i received my first and second tangible present. was surprised that my birthday wishlist was really heeded, so i happily accepted my gwen stefani album (not pirated 1 k) and the perfume from jw(who, as you can see, is pretty rich now). the show was a disappointment as its kinda boring and overly crowded at DXO. so we headed for supper instead. the highlight of the night was the supper and i really had a great time chatting to my fellow log o and welfare..its been a long time since we last chatted..though we mostly talked about non-sensical stuff..as usual jw is quiet but will suddenly bomb u with some shocking statement..cj ask alot of hypothetical questions, angeline laugh alot, and i, as usual, am a mean girl who judge and poke fun at others..

sunday..
dad brought us to the thai sharksfin restaurant. the last time we went was a many years ago to celebrate my late grandma's birthday. he really went all out to show his generosity and we had a super duper filling and luxirious meal. it was a rare treat indeed, as we dont often eat such stuff. we had sharksfin, abalone rice, my fave prawn tanghoon, fish and veggies with scallop. i guess coz my bro was back from camp and my parents were in a particularly good mood, and even chatted with the waitresses!

monday..
my date with lun zi was a satisfied and fruitful 1. we had jap food and managed to draft a plan to take over the world, starting from europe. after studying the map we decided that we will focus on italy, france and germany on our backpacking trip. then we headed to shop at taka and wisma and i managed to buy ALL my CNY clothes within 4 hours. and out of the 5 items, 4 are SALE items le!!! so excited..haha..and manymany thanks for the gift you gave..i know how u love giving me fragrances..and i know how it has definitely cause a dent in your pockets!

in all, i had 4 days of celebration for my birthday, contrary to how i felt initially..felt blessed that i have friends around me who bother to remember, who bother to ask me out, and family who's not entirely perfect, but the only one i ever want to have. a special mention is that an old friend OMT who actually remembers..he has kind of watched me grow up though my teenage years and i am truly happy for him and his family of 4..really touched that he remembers..