finally?

i apologise for "abandoning" this usually boring blog, which somehow satisfies some people's thirst for gossips and stories..haha..been busy with school. yes. final year, but how come i seem to be the only one who has no life? (think coz i am SLOW..) been pia-ing fyp, after which i pia quizzes, followed by examinations..now, finally free, but i am leaving for europe tmr..its a dream come true, but i too worry..robbers..rapists..anyway, please visit the group travel blog: ticketforfour.blogspot.com (i think thats the link..) for updates during the trip..erm..hope i have opportunity to update though..

i must say..i am really glad to be missed by my platoon-mates..and i am kinda sad i missed out alot. apparently, lots have happened, and i STILL duno half of it..and i am also sad i didn't get to help my friend through a difficult time..also kinda sad that i didn't know about it..well, unfortunately, this will go on for about 1 month plus..too bad for me..haa..

alright..its 4am..please bless me for my trip..and for those going on trips too, take care, and have fun!!!

to do for me:

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Leylong


to kaypoh:

http://kevan.org/johari?view=Leylong

this v day, i had one of the best dates ever...

6 LZBs: the 2 hans, audrua and qian lu, hou and i, hop onto han's car and headed to holland v for dinner at 9pm plus! by then we were all starving..but the wait was worth it! we settled down at crystal jade la mian xiao long bao restaurant!! waa..by then we were super hungry and ordered quickly. surprisingly, the restaurant wass till packed at that hour. audrua and i ordered fried rice and chicken soup la mian to share...we also ordered some xiao long bao and other food to share..i guess its the FEELING again..haha the LZB-bonding feeling, and the fact that we were famished that made the dinner especially enjoyable. later on, we went to eat famous selegie tau hway..audrua insisted we blast 91.3fm and pretend to be very hip ah lians...anyway, don't understand WHY they still have space for that. i only drank soya milk. then we saw pam with a super duper cutie..we were all drooling lo..actually...still drooling now..*slurp slurp*
after we're done stuffing ourselves, we embark on the journey back to hall. on the way i guess we kind of went crazy. no correction, qianlu went crazy. she insisted we sing the last verse:" you say it best...when you say nothing at all....." ok that was kinda corny, but it was fun..coz we were all girls who were sitting on the same shelf..oops..i mean staying in the same block..nevertheless, we all agree that it was a great way to spend v day: with your girl friends..

the LZB strikes again. this time was a movie trip at JP, with 2 tag-alongs JJ and poh. the strength of the LZBs was almost full. jp and beca, audrua and qianlu, hou and i and sh. the feeling of camaraderie never ceases to amaze me. though we have not went through thick and thin together, neither were we close friends throughout our 3 years in hall, there is a certain bond which links all of us. the bond of being the oldest batch of girls in hall that is. somehow the bond is also a kind of power. power held only by strength of experience and amount of time spent in hall. at the recent CNY steamboat dinner, the jcrc prez gave us free yu-sheng (without the fish...) despite us feeling paiseh to accept, as we all did not pay block fund, and were only there by merit of thick-skin-ness. however, he said 2 words which really truck me hard.

"seniors ma.."

was all he said. and at that point it does struck me. somehow senior do hold a certain power, whereby we dare to do whatever we like, can openly dislike anyone we like. gone were the days where we see a senior and had to force an unwilling smile. now we were the seniors instead. and in that, it is the reverse situation. how odd it feels, yet how good it feels.

back to the camaraderie. we all truly enjoyed ourselves during any outings and events we hold for ourselves. whether is it JB trip, steamboat or even a simple movie date. we occupy at least half a row of the cinema, we laugh the loudest, we laugh at each other crying at touching scenes (I Not Stupid 2. Great movie! Must watch if you are Singaporean.The message rocks you to the core.), mocking those who had red noses, bought supper..somehow simple events can serve as great memories. when i leave behind my Uni life to step out into the adult world, i will look back and savour those memories of the LZBs and how we truly enjoyed ourselves doing simple things at a simple time of our lives.

ps. i got an A for 304 presentation! first time in my life! so happy i must show it off here.

Living in Fear in Green Block

Came back hall early this morning to get some work done, but i keep hearing irritating squeeking noises, which i was hoping are made by the birds and not by lizards..

then somebody was hovering at my door and i open to see a leaflet from hall office

i quote
"We suspect that there is a rat/mouse running loose at level 4. As for hygiene purposes......"

what the ****

now every noise i hear makes me scared, and i can no longer sleep in blissful peace.

THANKS man.

had a fruitful day today..

0815-1045
Woke up and got force myself into the shower and then had breakfast with dad and bro at a famous and absolutely delicious prawn mee stall at kallang area. Its been a long time since we last had breakfast together and somehow it felt very good to relieve a pastime of childhood. reminds me of the time we go genting or malaysia or overseas we'll always have breakfast at the now gone market at Gardens. same as always over the meal we'll have discussions and disagreements. I insisted that my dad should cut down his coffee intake and my bro insist that its not harmful at all. not harmful doesn't mean can drink 4 cups a day right? disgusting boy.

1050-1800
went to buy Mac coffee and nua outside Clementi mac awaiting arrival of my 2 fyp mates yan and ah ju. was super duper tired and somehow after the very bitter coffee, i felt refreshed, while yan still remain...tired..haha..had some discussion then we head to NUS central library to steal their resources. managed to meet a few familiar faces, firstly is William my Angel(as in angel mortal game..), then Kim slap me on the back very hard in the library..and then lao B. after vomitting blood using the lousy photocopiers and commiting suicide by printing lots of readings for OURSELVES to read, we can finally have lunch. at 4pm. since we cant find the famous arts canteen(lao B's directions were great.pui.)we ate at this cafe called gecko. ok la..cheap lo..but the brownie was grEEEaaAAt! so we talk about our project further before i force them to head to science block to see my buddy's booth. i juz wanted to see see la..and hoping to entice yan and ah ju to buy...but we were real tired and only stayed for 10min..sorry buddy..in all, we spent about 6 hours at NUS.

2130-0300
met the girls at dbl o for some FREE drinks. not bad..tried carlsberg..q ok la, for those who dont really take beer. somehow it tastes much better than tequila. since ms wong managed to jio j and c, we pia to zouk to meet them and checked out phuture. once j heard the R&B music, he made a fantastic comment: "huh R&B arh? wa lan eh..." i guess its really not his generation's music sia..cukture shocked? haha after exploring, j treat us to sex on beach and kamikaze..not bad!q like sex on beach..guess coz got cranberry? of coz we chopchop pia down to dance floor which was q filled. duno whats wrong with the dj,music like q..sian?the girls went to pee and we secretly head to phuture. omg! its so shuai! oops..i mean its fun..the music is good to dance to and the guys are cuteR.sorry..(kinda dislike those mambosexuals..guys and girls hai..sometimes they dance on platform look so sian, like got people force them like that. halo! u think you r cool? who force u? how come look like u on duty like tat. we can dance on our own thank you very much.)but we are loyal girls so after experiencing 5 min of seasickness(yes, its so packed at phuture tat when people move, u'd better dance. else u will get seasick)we went back to our tall dark and handsome(it was dark, they are tall, and guys at phuture are handsome) friends.however, they gotta leave soon so the 3 girls head to PHUTURE! yay! cute guys! oops..i mean yay! R&B!

we were enjoying ourselves when we realized we were "surrounded" by a group of guys and 1 girl. they were q nice and suggest we dance together coz v packed. the girl asked our age and told her she's 20. we all wanted to die on the spot. how ancient can one feel? it was kinda weird coz 1 of the guys suddenly told ms wong that they juz wanna dance...uh-huh?if not dance then wad?we all scratch heads.

according to ms wong, a guy tried to dance with me.somehow i have no idea? i did notice him in his white blazer..hanging around us..and thought he's kinda cute..for about 10min..somehow see long le den......like tat lo..haha..so i am v v blur actually?i dont sense whats happening around me, though i can "protect" my friends? hmm...thank god for my kakis man..

as usual, i was discreetly bio-ing cute guys. was staring at this guy with the ah-mao hair..u know kinda long 1 then the fringe cover forehead? then i was thinking to myself "ëh how come recently this hair so popular huh?"(i remembered last time we went zouk, i noticed and laughing inside at a guy with that hair and realised its ben yeo) then the guy looked at me then i realized.."Eh..its ben yeo..AGAIN!" and its chen hanwei and a whole group of..friends AGAIN. and AGAIN, they dancing next to us, and AGAIN, ms wong got very excited.

after dancing for very long, we realised that 3 has become 4. somehow we have acquired another member in our group. a guy who is my height. yes..and managed to dance near us for very long, wherever we go. however, he couldnt sum up any guts to approach ms wong(assuming he is interested in her la)and left..she would have given him her number..too bad boy.

in all, the clubbing is a success for us girls. we had great fun, mainly at phuture. however gian we are..we shall REST and be good students..and then the 3 of us can come together and play again during recess (our recess..so by then ms chong start school le? but still..must come k. we're each other's bf le..)

i have so many thoughts for my birthday in 2006..

initially...
is it true that as people grow older, they tend to be less excited about their birthdays? increasingly, it seems to be just another day, rather than a day of significance. could it be the maturing of the state of mind, the increasing level of skeptism and decreasing ability to be excited about something or perhaps, the lack of want to emphasize the advancement of age? the lack of excitement about my bithday is reinforce by my indifference to whether there is cake, and my reaction to my mum when she ask me what i want for present, and my reply is simply, actually, no need anything. so different the reply is, compared to 2 years ago, where i will jump at the chance to ask for something exciting, and maybe even fantasize about the flavour of my birthday cake. perhaps because it reminds me that i am no longer a child. the difference between 21 and 22 is not just 1..being 21 gives you an excuse to be childish, to lapse from occasional irresponsibility, as its just the onset of adulthood. however, being 22 is entirely different. no longer is any excuse valid, no longer will people condone anything less than maturity.
however,there is an element of contradiction in my way of thinking. however indifferent i am to the actual birthday, i am still disappointed when no friends ask me out to celebrate my birthday.

on approaching the actual day...
i began to look forward as it also signifies the coming of the weekend. somehow i managed to work up an enthusiasm when ange invited me out..then another group asked me out for a little celebration...and lunz asked me out on monday..my dad also promised to treat the family to something good. i took the opportunity to suggest eating at a restaurant my mom was dying to eat. however, i was suddenly "un-invited" for my birthday celebration..and i was not even informed about it..somehow after that i became very disappointed..felt unimportant..insignificant..so i decided to take initiative and invited people out to celebrate my own birthday (sound desperate..but i guess i really felt so?)..heng they decided not to be zhong se qing you for once and agreed to go shopping with me..

wednesday..
its mambo night, and ladies night at dbl o..and being the greedy girls we are, we went dbl o to drink ourselves silly before heading to zouk..i guess my stomach was q empty, so i was kinda tipsy and couldnt stop laughing even before exiting dbl o..zouk was like a ghost town though it was already close to midnight and only 2 very loyal mambo fans were on the dance floor. there was virtually no queue and we got in pretty quick. i THINK. i was reallyreally walking funny by then..however we HAD to work off the alcohol and got on the dance floor. halfway through it became q packed adn we began to have loads of fun. the music was really enjoyable and we dance like crazy. to xue, the high point of the night was seeing chen hanwei i guess. somehow shes super excited..

friday..
went shopping with xue and yan..then jon and colin asked me out for dinner and drinks! make me so happy..at least some friends care? however i had a super big headache abd irritable temper, thanks to the low mood and the effects of the alcohol really added to that and magnified it 10 times. but still, it was an enjoyable evening for me, coz i felt like i have friends and that they made an effort for me.

saturday..
ange invited us to the motorola black show(some fashion show) and though we're entitled to a drink each, ange and i were like drinking drop by drop. somehow felt real turn off by the alcohol. so in the end CJ zuan dao..he had 3 housepours. i received my first and second tangible present. was surprised that my birthday wishlist was really heeded, so i happily accepted my gwen stefani album (not pirated 1 k) and the perfume from jw(who, as you can see, is pretty rich now). the show was a disappointment as its kinda boring and overly crowded at DXO. so we headed for supper instead. the highlight of the night was the supper and i really had a great time chatting to my fellow log o and welfare..its been a long time since we last chatted..though we mostly talked about non-sensical stuff..as usual jw is quiet but will suddenly bomb u with some shocking statement..cj ask alot of hypothetical questions, angeline laugh alot, and i, as usual, am a mean girl who judge and poke fun at others..

sunday..
dad brought us to the thai sharksfin restaurant. the last time we went was a many years ago to celebrate my late grandma's birthday. he really went all out to show his generosity and we had a super duper filling and luxirious meal. it was a rare treat indeed, as we dont often eat such stuff. we had sharksfin, abalone rice, my fave prawn tanghoon, fish and veggies with scallop. i guess coz my bro was back from camp and my parents were in a particularly good mood, and even chatted with the waitresses!

monday..
my date with lun zi was a satisfied and fruitful 1. we had jap food and managed to draft a plan to take over the world, starting from europe. after studying the map we decided that we will focus on italy, france and germany on our backpacking trip. then we headed to shop at taka and wisma and i managed to buy ALL my CNY clothes within 4 hours. and out of the 5 items, 4 are SALE items le!!! so excited..haha..and manymany thanks for the gift you gave..i know how u love giving me fragrances..and i know how it has definitely cause a dent in your pockets!

in all, i had 4 days of celebration for my birthday, contrary to how i felt initially..felt blessed that i have friends around me who bother to remember, who bother to ask me out, and family who's not entirely perfect, but the only one i ever want to have. a special mention is that an old friend OMT who actually remembers..he has kind of watched me grow up though my teenage years and i am truly happy for him and his family of 4..really touched that he remembers..

who wants to

watch movie (The heirloom, In Her Shoes, Elizabethtown and Chronicles of Narnia)

shop (CNY clothes, shoes, frivolous stuff...Anything!)

with me???


pmsy

this is the supersupersuper good view from the 21st storey of UOB plaza...there i only 1 thing to say. WOW!! and its really much better if you see it with your own eyes!!! though the view from the conference room is great (i get to work there for 2 days!) i cant say the same for the people working there...lets not talk about disgusting people...anyway, more about the view..i think its an interesting view of singapore..as it encompasses what we are all about. The new and the old, all combined..boat quay, symbolic of the hardships of our forefathers who laboured at the docks, also signifying how we became a successful country through entreport trade, and the benefits of a natural harbour..in addiiton, there is also the view of the CBD area and the esplanade..and not forgetting, the Singapore river..

this is a more arty version...which i prefer, coz it hides the fact that i suck at collage and anything arty...

here are the photos which i am lazy to upload but which i downloaded frm my friends..wahahahah!!! and i am STILL waiting for the pics from the xmas eve gathering (hor...ANGELINE CHONG RUN MEI..wad a long n difficult to remember name wor) and new yr eve rendezvous...while i wait and wait until i will forget soon..here are juz a few pics..




taken on boxing day after a session of tennis and gym..this is what is left of the chocolate log cake..thanks to julia for doing the collage. i just stole it without her permission..hahaha!!! i dun care!!! i helped you MAKE the SHITTY mess..yes, dun u guys think it looks like shit? haha!

the FIRST photo i took in the year 2006 and its TOTALLY FREE!! unfortunately, i dun get to keep the original..but still!!! somehow i very "loo-gie" coz i took up the least space in the pic...hmmm..and why they only told me i have messy hair AFTER the pic? my curry-pok is collapsing le...haha..but still, its with my beloved platoon-mates-cum-tennis gang..hey girls, our first pic in the new year, hope it signifies that we will remain close ties throughtout the year..

chicken little..very ugly...but i think its q funny..haha..i think i was so tired that i became so brave to do this in front of the 5 million other people at carrefour..

i'm deaf! i'm deaf! music at mos is a tad too loud..however i must say..their House ROCKS! i totally agree with jon when he said tat local DJs cant beat foreign ones, who know how to work the crowd and respond..and build up the music to a definite high..yes, cant belive i am saying this, but i truly enjoyed the House at MOS..the emperor and jon can really..dance..i think they really will shou4 liang3 quan1..on the oher hand, the retro there is really retro...so retro that few of us recognise most of the songs..and the dj seems like kind of a klutz coz there are glitches in the music, like sudden stoppages, and he manage to produce very slow mixes..no kick at all..as for the R&B..i like the decor, whereby the dance floor is actually a metal cage, much like the kind betting fights u see in ghettos in the poorer end of america..i guess its as popular as the House area..however i find that themusic is kinda boring, nothing i recognise, but i only stayed there for a while, and from what hou and ms wong and val said, they loved it..well..to each her own then haha..one bad thing is that the drinks are pricey, $12 a shot, which really makes you miss the drinks at dbl O...oh well, at least it discourages us from drinking too much..next stop, mambo at zouk on 18th jan! all my girls, lets' look forward to that!!

its been raining for the entire day...and before this, on and off rain..is the world really coming to an end?

yes i know this is veryvery bhb but juz in case u FEEL a little rich and FEEL charitable, and decided that u wanna buy a nice prez for me, this is for your reference..hehehe!!! this definitely reduces the inefficiency of INFORMATION ASYMMETRY. quick!!! chope what u wanna buy for me here! wahahahaha!!!

::my birthday wishlist::
in order of importance..

world peace

more hair
enough said..

junk food!!!
its a brand, NOT food pls..esp the beatles beige colour 1!!! in love with it...hmmm...colours i want: white, black, pale green, pale yellow...drooling already...

mac eyeliner
charcoal grey or black will do.

fragrance
lanvin Eclat D'arpege

cd
gwen stefani.

black jacket
a casual looking blazer..preferrably with light material, like cotton..nothing which is thick or padded ANYwhere..

massager
u know, the osim or oto kind which fiona xie is plugging? hehehe...hopefully it works n i can finally see my toes..actually, more of hoping my dad will get it..

its been a lonnnnng time(to the tune of casey's song)....since i last log in n update this boring blog...in fact, i hven been updating since last yr...i have much to say, much to boast about, much to reminisce, much thoughts...however, i am also a very lazy, easily tired, procrastinating and forgetful person with a heckcare attitude...lethal combination i tell u...however, in short, and subject to the limits of my very limited memory, here are what i deem to be highlights..

girls' night out: first time go clubbing with lunz..hehe..FUN right? must laugh at people and not be afraid to look like a fool then fun ma..haha..but i think the emphasis is...GIRLS have much more fun..and chinablack...is not for me...

girls' night out II: watched the Promise with xiyipo and ange..the movie is hilarious, beautiful(scenery, not the plot or actors) and after watching it, u cant help but feel that..there are some very gay men in the show..the company, though small in numbers, is still very much fun..and we did something awful, up till now, i'm still feeling the guilt..we didnt pay for the very cheap waffles with 2 scoops of ice-cream..yes, i believe in karma..waiting for it to strike me unaware..

xmas: long awaited potluck gathering with some friends, especially noted for the presence of my best friend lunzi aka su-SAN3, best girlfriend angeline and best neighbour xi yi po...and the presence of some sumptous home-make food..both healthy and sinful concoction...avocado salad..tomyum soup, seafood baked rice...hmmmm....i wonder WHERE ARE THE PHOTOS???

annual new year eve rendezvous: it never ceases to amaze me, how the only time ALL the platoon-mates are able to make it is on 31st dec...however, it also never ceases to amaze me, how much fun we can have, and how well we can click, and how we can spend all the time playing bridge, dai di, talking about everything under the moon n sun..however ridiculous, however mobid and however....RA...(this year, we talked about tsunami hitting spore, end of the world, and how our uterus are gonna drop out by itself and came up with the origination of the term "loose" woman..)

new face shop tomato peel off mask: its liberating using the peel off mask...simultaneously disgusting n perverted, the peeling off part is the best!!! hmmm...suspect i will make a very good serial killer who loves peeling the skin off her victims...hmmm...if not for the bloody mess and the dubious hygirne level of prison, i may seriously consider it...

army: my bro has finally gone off to army, and that particular night, when i woke up to pee, i was surprised that his room is empty. somehow i cant process that he has been enlisted. 2 days after he left, my mom made a comment that the house seems very quiet now that there is 1 person short. and suddenly somehow, i was very glad i'm not an only child.

reunion with jc kakis: yes, the 4 pretty girls of S20 (rx, min, ben and i...yes...ben too...)...we met up and ate our fave STEAMBOAT!!! the soup was supersuper good le...cant eat much but i cant resist the soup..and after tat we ate dessert...zhai right? but only ben finished, and he has the slimmest body! haha...hmm...but no curves...

hey people, wanna draw your attention to this new exciting link..its by my buddy who handmade the "vanity" line of accessories...i think her designs have been improving, so please check them out! its a great way to get limited editions accessories and also ideal as gifts..

http://vanity-secrets.blogspot.com/

fyp meeting was....

hilarious..we managed to be v clumsy n stooopid...haha..
delicious..coz we were all starving..and the oki..sumthing is really yummy..love the combi of squid and veggies
hothothot..ate the volcano ramen..WOOHOO..really super hot, but as ms wan describe it..very "shuang" and we had red lips n she couldn't stop sneezing and sniffing..
judgemental..we decided that ah ju is a "xiu shou pang guan" person who likes to eat PAPER, i like to clean table n kick people, and ms wan was...i forgot to say out but she is LOUD. IS loud. still is. and she gave me a shower of blessing..
semi-fruitful..coz we got discuss proj la..haha..and everyone got do homework..and after a looong break, we forgot where all our readings were...tot was with me..

this morning saw in the papers that Japan has snow storm in many areas and there were even some death cases..kinda worried abt chel n fam..hope they are far from the dangerous areas..

one happy thing happened today..Lay Tuan praised me today! my first praise of the attachment..haha..she said that the payroll was WELL DONE! yippee! of coz well done la..i spent so much time on it..haha..

some cool stuff to share

was waiting for my bus for sooo long..as usual..coz its the end of the day, and the heels are killing me...when i see this uncle... woah..mayb can get 1 for myself..heehee


saw this on the road haha..itsn't it COOL? its the most BENG and the most erm..hot..looking trishaw i have ever seen..haa..guarantee to make u center of attraction...unfortch..the pic is kinda unclear..

the last weird thing here is...Swee, who looks supersuper ugly...haha..i mean SUPER ugly man..and he is proudly holding the BANNER which jeffery made on the spot to support Quan YiFeng at the filming of Superhost..it says "Jia You Quan Yi Feng love FA-ge"

there is an issue which i ponder over pretty often..a realisation dawn on me today. subconsciously, i pull away emotionally and mentally from friends who get attached and my mentality towards him or her immediately shift towards the "i better pull away before she drifts away" gear. i suppose tat on some level, i expect them to abandon me, so in order to self-protect, i shirk away first. however, the mentality re-enforce itself once the friend exhibits zhong se qing you traits.

perhaps not everyone will abandon their friends once they get attached. maybe its just me. but i suspect mostly, its not just me! its just that their other halfs seem much more important, however often they see each other. can you still blame me for pulling away? why stay when you know you're GOING TO get hurt?

saw this on my gate this morning..was wondering how come got branches AROUND the railings 1..then i refocus my eyeballs and *toot*...i hatehatehate lizards n their kind..my hand was super close to it can..in the end i was so chicken i had to use the umbrella to hook the doors close then lock it..piangz..my hands were shaking..what a chicken man..haha

anyway, its fyp excursion day n the adenga is to visit this mysterious archive site our tutor recommended at sentosa (???) n to take a look at asian civilisation museum to sieve out some info..for once i remembered to slap on sunblock before going out but...there was no sun to block..diao..i waited AGES for the bus and as i was trying to enjoy the cool peaceful sunday morning when i feel that something's missing..omg..i realised that i cant live without my mp3 player..yes, my ears were itching for some music. so i plug up and the first some that came on is..."waiting for u...i'm waiting for u..." how apt! i was waiting for the stupid bus..and my mp3 player..all of 11 months old, is ALREADY falling into bits, held together by a rubberband..see..i used it well and often..did not waste the $$ of S20..

anyway i was the latest coz i took NEL in the wrong direction. how very smart of me..well, the trip to sentosa was exciting. coz we took bus go "holland" then wasted 10bucks on the museum coz the info is not in depth enough and its sort of common knowledge for the average s'porean. argh..well, we decided to come back another day and sit on the chair lift and play the luge!!! haha so exciting!!! next stop, asian cililisation museum..lucky for the lady at the info counter, we did not waste precious $ coz the info they had weren;t what we needed after all! heng..after all this, we were all exhausted..duno why so lousy also..but i think its rather fun! we chatted alot..and know about ms wan's love story..n how SHOCK everyone were..including jaze n i..