am i too cold?

do u ever get the feeling that you are losing somebody and the helplessness that comes with it? be it a friend, a lover, a kin, a camaraderie. the feeling that nothing will ever be what it was again. is losing friends part and parcel of life? how do you stop it from happening?

the neglect, the obvious loss of contact, the decreasing dependency, the rejection. yes, that is what i see it as, this is what i felt. is this alienation of my own accord, or is it a gradual progression of your actions(or rather, lack thereof)?

it was not blatant, but in my face enough to see it, enough to warant disappointment. enough to kick in my self preservation mode. enough to cause aloofness. enough to freeze.