toxic.

have you ever had a love-hate relationship with someone? i realized recently, that i have 2 friends like that, both girls of coz.

girl a...sticks to me only when she needs me. in fact..both does la. but girl a stuck to me for about 1 year, and the moment we grad, she doesn't need me anymore and hence, not in contact any longer, though we're in the same Uni. when we see each other, depending on her mood, she'll either go "öei" or "halo!" or " " (which is pretend nvr see). so when we have class gathering and i know she feels very off, i only go "halo" and run off with my real friends. why should i bother when she doesn't?

girl b...is an interesting girl. so interesting that i don't know if she likes me or hates me. we had a misunderstanding(over a guy of all reasons, and it was probably all in her imagination) and hence before we can establish a proper friendship, everything went down hill. i kept getting the feelng that she was trying to leave me out of everything, and being very secretive around me. though i finally found out why, our friendship never resumed. other things happened which made me lose my faith and tarnish my impression of her. soon my aloofness became dislike, and now i don't even feel like speaking to her. i wonder if its my own prejudice or the circumstances. but i truly think she has done something really bad. if it is true, then she is really a huai4 nu3 ren2.

however i do have soft spots for both of them. when people criticise them, i will definitely speak up if i feel they are wronged. why? i have no idea. could be that after all, there were once my friends.

do u have such friends too?