i can't decide if alvin tan looks more like a priest...or a jedi knight... 

and the 2005 hall QUEEN is.....terry-ble!!! 

vincent...honoured to be on my blog? too bad can't publish the "good stuff" photo... 

audrua and i...she looks very "princess-y" !! 

in my heart, seng is the best dressed k...he looks like abdul...the monkey in Aladdin..wahahahah 

yiling is wearing heels...thats why shes taller ok... 

on such a special day, of coz muz take photo with my roomie right? she looks pale coz haven put makeup...for ONCE she looks sicker than me..haha 

2 sets of roomies!!!  

Havocers 03/04/05...we can't decide which camera to look at...there were so many cameras!!! felt just like celebrities.. 

Green blockers!!! though a paltry number compared to orange blockers, we are a more united bunch k..hahaha everyone is in havoc, dnd or qp main comm at some point or other...supportive of hall 5 ba... 

sihui trying to too herself here...for someone about to die, she looks waaaaaay too happy.. 

i'm proud of my master piece...i bao the turban for abel!!! haha i also uprooted(is there such a word?) alot of his precious locks! 

dnd's slackest trio...xi yi po, janice and i..haha we were nua-ing together the whole day!! either nua in the ballroom, in the hotel room, or at the make-up area...waa...doesn't janice look like an indian bride? 

woo....xiao bai the genie which comes out of the oil lamp! evil xi yi po is trying to murder my genie!!! there goes my 3 wishes! 

qianlu and xi yi po yiling..haha...in case its not obvious...we are trying to position our bodies to spell d-n-d 

my portfolio mates ELOs! stands for External Liaision Officers...sounds v seh hor..shihan and liankai...they always say i'm ELO chio-est...of coz la.. 

dinner and dance committee 2005! DOUBLE CONFUSED!! 

wo shi mei de..

today, someone told me that i am very pretty.

she made my day.

simply because a compliment about my looks from another girl is worth more than a million guys telling me the same thing.

and i realize...

that i don't know how to react to compliments

momo tomorrow...i can't wait.

oblivious.

rather than being on the

DEFENSIVE,

why not be on the

OFFENSIVE?

does it feel better to strike out than to receive blows? why don't i strike first to reduce hurt, rather than sit and wait for an attack on my feelings? why don't i armour myself with a hard heart, with aloofness and with indifference. will that cushion me against an oblivious attacker?

my head hurts.

i hate seperations

there are 2 songs in the world which i hate alot..at the same time, i really love listening to them!!!

"graduation" by Vitamin C and "dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi sui" by xin shao nian ju le bu

especially when it is nearing THAT part of my life...i hate seperations.

my thoughts..

in response to angeline's wish about the perfect world..peace, love, kindness, tenderness...

in this world, if u notice, things come in pairs...eye..ears..boobs...hahaha...

anyway, in this world..there is a reason why things happen. why there is war, why there is selfishness, why there is anger....

there cannot be peace without war...for you wouldn't appreciate the goodness of peace time, if you have never experience the horros of war

there cannot be ultimate love without hatred, for there is no foil to the greatness of love, there will be no recognition of love.

there cannot be kindness or gratitude, if you have not experienced selfishness and nastiness, for you will not be appreciative

will things ever be the same again?

let me tell you the story of 2 friends.

once, there were 2 friends who see each other virtually everyday. they had fun daily and did things together. stuff like shopping, chatting, eating, attending classes. they stuck together. soon there was a school break. soon there was a drift.

for 1 of them found a new friend.

an interesting, spontaneous and charming friend. a superior replacement. things will never be the same.

the drift became clear to the other, for there were no more invitations to meet, little contact, and much less conversations. when they meet, there was little chance to be alone with her friend. for there was someone else to shop with, hang out with, watch movie with. ey she hang on and pretended not to notice. she tried to hide the hurt, the complains and she adapted. gradually, she gained a little of her friend back but she still had to share. things will never be the same.

when school starts again, things became hectic. there was no time to play, no time for herself and even less time for others. a hectic schedule means disappointment to her friends, her family. even to her runaway friend. until one day thngs turn around and the runaway friend accused her of neglect. but there was nothing to be done. only profuse apologies and a hope for understanding. things will never be the same.

this is the story of 2 friends.

merlion.

club momo

large, spacious, freezing cold and free entry. until the crowd sets in from 930pm onwards. by 10plus, there is virtually no place to stand without feeling off, coz all corners and table, bar counters..any place to lean on is covered by bodies. i like the idea...of a large venue, with different sections. a pool secton, a soccer section with a large screen tv, a dance floor(too small though..), a seperate section for live band, but unfortunately, the toilet is at 1 end. i want in, i want to be 1 of the shareholders. i think they earn v well. though there is free entry b4 10pm, the drinks sell well. a bottle of chivas(now, a taboo word) is about...$240? memebrship is about...$300? 1 huge problem is, as it gets late, it gets TOO crowded to move to the toilet, much less DANCE. it was that squeezy.

1 bottle of chivas. 2 jugs of vodka ribena.

1 drunk girl. 1 woozy girl. 1 steady girl. 1 zhai girl. 2 worried old men.

1 who loves to dance WITH the table. 1 who loves to dance IN the curtains. 1 who keeps peeing. 1 who don't get to play.

drip drip drip.

mom insisted i went home for lunch once sat.duno why i was super tired (i slept at 1145pm the previous night n woke at 9am) and on my way home on the train, i actually fell asleep. people who know me well will know that i don't sleep on public transports easily.guess i was really tired!(have been tired recently..damn..rapid aging?)at the same time, i was starving.hence, i dreamt..and i dreamt of..FOOD!yes i was THAT hungry.when i i fnally awoke(manage to be very zhun and wake up just as the train was approaching my stop)i found that i was...drooling. juz a little...but all the same EMBARRASSING. wonder if anyone noticed, coz lucky for me, those people standing around em were facing the other way. nevertheless..YIKES!

i need motivation.

i need motivation. i have a confession to make: i skipped 1 lesson (the only lesson of the day) and went shopping. alone. never mind that the shopping trip only lasted 30min, never mind that there was no intention to go shopping before i skipped lesson. i have been feeling odd of late..muz be the time of the month again! dun feel like doing my readings, fulfilling basic responsibilities in proj dicussions, attending classes or simply being IN ntu. just don't feel lik it. feel like sleeping forever, eating bread ( i know, how to eat bread and sleep at the same time right?), also don't feel like smiling much...basically, don't seem tio have much energy and somehow, worse than usual bad memory. forgot to bring along impt stuff like wallet, keys and mp3 player when i go home..more than once! help! i need some motivation man...and some bread please..

s.t.r.e.s.s.

if i have made the right choice, then why do i find myself wondering if i have made the right choice? confusing? but its as simple as it gets. many times i find myself wondering...am i really cut out to be an accountant? i have much difficulty understanding the underlying principles of accounting, can't seem to THINK like an accountant, don't seem to get the logic, and worst of all, just don't get bonds and securities..i always wonder...will i be better off taking engineering? afterall, my strength lies in mathematics (though i am mediocre by most standards..damn..). the feelings are further intensified when i attempt my readings and managed not to get whatever the chim text is trying to tell me. furthermore, attending lessons lowers my morale inch by inch..and not to mention doing projects with the zhai ple..i am SOOO NOT motivated to do my stuff! can't help thinking back on JC days where despite not being able to solve a complicated math problem, i will stick to it and work it till i can get it right. i wonder where my drive has gone to. where has the thirst for knowledge gone to? actually come to think fo it, it has not gone anywhere. coz i simply do not have a thirst for knowledge. things are not helped by the fact that i am a chao slacker, lazy ass and miss dependent. i also can't do any things at the same time. worst of all, all the projects just come TOGETHER.

i have a 4 day week and wed is my free day. everyone says its damn slack but picture a typical week for me. mon: 3 hours lesson. at least another 2 hours proj. tues: 4 hours lesson 1030 - 230. AA206 proj reading. AA205 proj discussion. wed: free day! 2 hours BM321 proj discussion. typeout of AA205 proj proposal. thurs: 2 hours of lesson. god-knows-how-long hours of AA206 proj discussion, coz i am doing proj with 3 other gods. STRESS. fri: 6 hours of lesson, in between, got to meet for proj again.

on top of all these FIXED "engagements" , i have to do the normal readings and tutorials(which i haven't been touching!) and research for each proj, studying of financial statements and analysts reports, coz i CANNOT go for proj discussion with no brains and no information..and if i am unlucky, got to present tutorial qn..i have also been neglecting my FYP COMPLETELY, as i can't find the time! feel so guilty towards my fellow fyp mates, as i am causing the group to lag behind. though they obviously have the same projects as i do, somehow i can't seem to take out any time! alot ple have been asking me "why u look so stressed recently?"

oh man...i need a fairy godmother..

smokey smokey

i was watching tv at home one day last week, minding my own business when i smell something suspicious..again..

me: eh wei an arh...i think you should go check out the food you're cooking lo...

wei an: aiyah..its not burning la..sweet potatoes cant burn lo (but just in case, walks towards the kitchen and opens the oven door

*black smoke escapes from the oven*

me: (looking at the black smoke wafting out) so...potatoes cant burn eh? (trying to hide my evil laughter) i'm going to close the door arh..same drill...u can escape from other side

toxic.

have you ever had a love-hate relationship with someone? i realized recently, that i have 2 friends like that, both girls of coz.

girl a...sticks to me only when she needs me. in fact..both does la. but girl a stuck to me for about 1 year, and the moment we grad, she doesn't need me anymore and hence, not in contact any longer, though we're in the same Uni. when we see each other, depending on her mood, she'll either go "öei" or "halo!" or " " (which is pretend nvr see). so when we have class gathering and i know she feels very off, i only go "halo" and run off with my real friends. why should i bother when she doesn't?

girl b...is an interesting girl. so interesting that i don't know if she likes me or hates me. we had a misunderstanding(over a guy of all reasons, and it was probably all in her imagination) and hence before we can establish a proper friendship, everything went down hill. i kept getting the feelng that she was trying to leave me out of everything, and being very secretive around me. though i finally found out why, our friendship never resumed. other things happened which made me lose my faith and tarnish my impression of her. soon my aloofness became dislike, and now i don't even feel like speaking to her. i wonder if its my own prejudice or the circumstances. but i truly think she has done something really bad. if it is true, then she is really a huai4 nu3 ren2.

however i do have soft spots for both of them. when people criticise them, i will definitely speak up if i feel they are wronged. why? i have no idea. could be that after all, there were once my friends.

do u have such friends too?

lemon 1000

"hi do you want to try? its a new drink by pokka. each bottle has 1000mg of vitamin C, equivalent to 12 lemons."

i said this like 5 million times within 2 days. did personal canvassing last weekend with rx,terry-ble and alvin tan. managed to see alot of babes and hunks with great bods..and realized that i am more interested in the female best abs contest than i am in the men's category. oops. the men...no eye candy there u see. all they have are great bods. sad to say, i am a looks-girl..so i do care about looks! no need some handsome guy, no need to be tall or tanned. as long as he's got good skin and i can stand loking at his face for pro-longed period of time. haha..but thats hard to find! and terry is really terrible..he asked rx n i "why is it that in the 2 years in hall, you don't find a bf?" isn't that another way of saying "there must be something wrong with u" or "why are you still single? HAHAHA!"

our job was to give out drinks sample and sell the bottle drink. seems easy, but wait till the ugly side of singaporeans reveal themselves.though there are people who refuse to try, there are more people who not only try, they try alot.u can never poor fast enough coz sometimes people just rush up to the booth and ask to try, either that or some people just can't get enough. they try so many times, and ask to fill up their cups. what the..? and there was this uncle..wa liew..he came for both days and everytime, ask us to fill the cup to the brim and drank so many times.i was so peeved that i told him "uncle since u like it so much and came for both days, why don't you buy some home?" i think i managed to shock alvin haha..first time he see me so hostile. another thing which makes rx and me blood boil is the boss. she has no sense of artistic direction and insist we do up the booth in cartain ways. hengwe didn't listen to her for everything. not only so, she has no common sense, and no proper system to get things done. everything is so messy and haphazard. she also has no sense of TIME. we were supposed to report at 630pm and she only met us at 7pm for a supposed briefing. in the end, it was not a briefing but to decorate and arrange the stall. we were supposed to start work at 10am but she got here at 11plus. she's supposed to come back at 2pm plus so rx and i can go have lunch. she got back at 6pm and act surprised that we haven't eat lunch. halo!!! u only asked the guys to go eat!!! and when there are 3 of us at the booth, 1 should keep pouring samples and the other 2 serve right? she insist on being the 1 to pour and rx and i serve. but she keeps running back to sit and count money. so who pour? when rx and i go pour, she'll rush out and say u 2 go serve.i'll pour. duh! so angry!!!

however, we do have some fun. when theboss is not around of coz! which is most of the time la. coz she'll disappear to god knows where. we joke around, laugh at the contestants and performers on stage..eat mash potatoes and hop over to our neighbours to eat noodles etc..and the pay was not bad, coz she did not try to cut our hours (though she was not here to check) and for that we give her credit la. though shes not the 1 paying the wages. haha. in all, maneged to make some extra cash, which i promptly spent it on shoes...diao...bought 2 pairs of heels thogh i KNOW they'll give me pain and blisters, and i cant take bus in it...who wants to drive me?

fulfiling day.

i had a fulfiling day today. bright and early, we had tennis lessons for 2 full hours. feels good to move about and also a chance for chel and i to refresh our memory and brush up on our tennis skills. kim and buddy are the newcomers, and though its only the first lesson, we declare that Kim is Julie biscuits no. 2. when she swings the racket, i can HEAR the wind! poor dakun..if they ever have a domestic quarrel, he sure die under a well welded frying pan. after a good workout (for me and chel, coz the coach THOUGHT we already mastered the basics and made us run and catch..), i headed back to sch for 2 proj meetings. i felt so popular that day, as supposedly i have 3 meetings at 2pm, 2.30pm and 3pm. so to ensure i did get something done, i had to cancel on my dear fyp mates..coz the pressure frm mr yang is really stressful. following the meetings is a super duper sucky lecture. thankfully, its the first and last one. the tutor who looks lik a caucasian but seems to be speaking tamil.i really couldn't understand him in the first 10min. everytime someone packs the bag and walks out of the lecture theatre, everyone else will look at him/her with envy. hai...pure waste of time huh. however,following that, we had havoc dinner! at pan pacific! omg..the food was really great, and it costs $56 per pax. it was pure heaven for people who eat raw oysters and salmon sashimi. as for me, i love the fresh prawns in tom yum soup! yum! and also the mussels (cooked 1s..)..it is also the first time i like the taste of beef steak. and the stir fry veggies..such a simple dish, but such great taste..wish i can cook that..and the desserts...well..the wide array of sweets are super tantalising..haha..mini cakes, brownies, puudings, ice-cream..pure heaven!

can't tink of title.

in·quis·i·tive adj.
1. Inclined to investigate; eager for knowledge.
2. Unduly curious and inquiring.
(www.dictonary.com)

according to the dictionary, inquisitive is a positive word. therefore, being inquisitive is probably a good thing, something to be proud of. to pursue a knowledge, to speak up when you do not comprehend. isn't this something our teachers have been trying to instil in us all the way from primary school up till university? words like "blur", "naive" and "stupid"...should they be used to describe one who is probably more inquisitive than any of the above 3? how many out there, is truly unafraid of asking why, what and how?


absolute silence.i need that in order to sleep. yet i could nto have that, and for the entire 2 little hours of nap i took, i did not have a moment's peace. first, the neighbour's youngest practics piano and with its halting rhythm, it is opposite of soothing. next, the stupid dog(belonging to said neighbour) couldn't stop barking at god knows what. then its owner decides to TALK to it. and using her very irritating and loud voice, in the most nauseating tone she can summon, she managed to talk gibberish to the dog for at least 10 minutes. following that, the dog was silent. for a grand total of 2 minutes. it began to bark again, different from the incessant barking from before. bark. silence. just when you thought it's finally going to rest, bark. silence. bark. silence....WHY??? ARGH!!!


heart attack.i saw an elderly man, probably in his 60s, obese and having a meal at canteen 1. i hope he was having a very late lunch or very early dinner, rather than jsut a snack. he was breathing heavily and gobbling down his food. from where i sit, i could see him consume something which looks like a pork or beef steak (along with the usual things like potato and a little salad). following that, he polished off an extra helping of fries(more like a heap of fries on anoher plate). after that, he had dessert. as i watched, i couldn't help feeling worried for him. truly, i fear for his health, especially if this unhealthy food choices is a daily pattern rather than a simple binge.

canvassing.did canvassing last sun, at marina south. thankfully, i have the company of janice and alvin tan. it was dreadfully hot and we had to roam the grounds of the national day fair(i duno whats the proper name of the fair) from about 10am till 5pm. we really almost died. the heat was enough to kill our appetite for lunch(not that there was any time allowance for lunch la) and all we wanted was drinks and fruit ice! our job was to go around selling the limited edition wrist band in order to raise funds for the women's team who will be scaling mt. everest in 2008. of coz there were a couple of cute guys around, and most of them are the army guys who were there on guard duty or in information counters. i enede up with heat stroke after that and managed to consume a whole pack of soya bean by myself. and though i was dead beat, i couldn't sleep at night and ended up feeling like shit the next day, meaning i skipped my pe class. sorry to jaze...dun mean to bang seh.

national day.went to hj's house to visit lexus and to meet up with my platoon-mates..somehow feels like a long time since i last saw them.and it was at least 2 years since i went to hj's house!omg..is it that long ago?anyway, as usual ple left early, and came very late..it is something you must get used to i guess. no point feeling shitty about it anymore. and i want to specially mention ms peiyu. coz she did not abandon us halfway(us, being all the singletons in the plt).anyway, we train up on our bridge and daidi skills, and omg i just love hj's mom. she made fish fingers with mash potato for us. it was heaven on earth man. such a nice gesture, and she send it up to us lo. though the turnout was not as good as it once was( i.e. 2 years ago), it was still enjoyable i guess. all the suaning and jokes..makes u wonder how long it will last. anyway we have made a date to go shopping and eating the next day..hope i can get some cheap stuff, and maybe source for something for dnd..

dancing queen.

omg. i am becoming a chiong-ster. i am possessed by the dancing queen. i am being led astray by my friends! i am becoming an addict.

after exploring 1nite stand, ange wants to try out dbl-o, coz the drinks are cheaper there. i suspect that their drinks are very watered down, as the tequila shots did NOT burn. at all. and we only end up with 1 unsteady lady, 1 very sleepy lady and 1..me. each of us had 3 shots of tequila, and shared 4 jugs of drink, and 2 waterfalls. actually, more like the 3 girls shared the 4 jugs. but ms unsteady insists that its not high enough and requests for more..and ms sleepy..really, what can i say? SLEEPY? and me..apart from being a little foggy, i was fine most of the times. so i declare, the drinks are really watered down!

we went on a sat night, so it was retro. our anticipation led to our sore disappointment as the music really sucked. big time. but ms sleepy can still dance as if it was really great. i guess that kinda "motivated" the rest, and we just let go and pretend that the music was really good. our pretense was so intense, that we actually danced until 4am and the people had to chase us out, in a subtle way by turning on the lights.

also, i noticed many couples doing things which i cannot talk about in my blog as it is a family oriented blog. in fact, they may not even be couples. they may just be friends. just like rachel and ross(ange...wake up...did u hear...?). we also spotted a pair of girls, dressed sexily and very similarly and who looked really great in the dark. they were electrocuted on the dance floor, and i really pitied them. actually, i wasn't really sure if they were electrocuted or plain dancing. in fact, i wasn't really sure if they were girls at all! i guess i wasn't really sure about most things.

except this: next stop - zouk.

treasure it.

recently i encounter a bad bout of cough. even worse, i encountered a serious SERIES of zhong se qing you friends. this is not simply a sweeping remark but based on my own encounters. however, i cannot blame them overmuch as they are still in the courting period, or the honeymoon months. all i can lament about is the lack of romance in my life. in fact, there isn't even any potential. maybe i should just take cj's kind advice to wear less clothes and walk around TRYING to look desirable. the main word here is TRY.

anyway enough of my seeping desperation. met cj for dinner (after like what..months? of neglect..) and realized that i am a very talkative person. haha actually, i am only talkative with the right people(cj, honoured?) but it was really good to catch up with a good friend and i think the 1.5 hours is TOO little! i seem to have alot of things to say but i can't recall what. hmm...anyway my point being, we should catch up with people who mean something to us. be it a good friend, an old friend, a cousin..because life passes us real quick and it is not easy to find people we can click with when we join the rat race. so people, go take the initiative and you won't regret it.

and some of you, PLEASE, stop being tua-sters..one day, you will find that NOBODY asks you out anymore...

am i too cold?

do u ever get the feeling that you are losing somebody and the helplessness that comes with it? be it a friend, a lover, a kin, a camaraderie. the feeling that nothing will ever be what it was again. is losing friends part and parcel of life? how do you stop it from happening?

the neglect, the obvious loss of contact, the decreasing dependency, the rejection. yes, that is what i see it as, this is what i felt. is this alienation of my own accord, or is it a gradual progression of your actions(or rather, lack thereof)?

it was not blatant, but in my face enough to see it, enough to warant disappointment. enough to kick in my self preservation mode. enough to cause aloofness. enough to freeze.

many firsts. II

after several weeks of trying to pull a "huijun" (definition: a situation whereby the blogger is too busy/tired/lazy to post blog entries but still able to chat via the tagboard of the blog in question), i finally force myself to blog. this being a belated entry, you will HAVE to do with my lengthy entries. (actually, i did have ideas but i typed them in my phone and too lazy to re-type into the blog..hehe..)

back by popular demand (as apparent from the copycats of this particular style of presentation, and no bad feelings were involved, as imitation is the best form of flattery), this entry is entitled
"many firsts II" and is specially for the camp(which is lik 2? weeks ago..)

the first time i...took a nap at the southern most point at sentosa, with nothing else except for a few friends and a life jacket as pillow

the first time i...feel as if i am a superstar, thanks to the thunderous clapping and cheers from the ever supportive seniors of hall 5. thanks for cheering and chanting "leylong" while i brave the forfeits, bestowed upon me by a shorty named keith.

the first time i...face the embarrassing forfeits with no grumble(havocer ma..got grumble also won't show..) and cheated shamelessly. but in the end, still end up having to do...

the first time i...witness the desperation guys actually possess, going all out, just to watch and..play? a shame it is..a shame..and those of you who are guilty, shame on YOU.

the first time i...run around singapore with at least 40 other people who, by the way, really stank.

the first time i...witness the pettiness of young adults over trivalities of games.

a little fun before camp..

i had a 1 night stand.

went crazy with FRIENDS on sat night.Ange wanted check out the band at 1night stand in clarke quay, and being her jam/dance/drink kakis, we HAVE to go haa. i met them with a heavy heart coz 1 of my pltmate quarrelled(or is fight more accurate?) with her mother. the rest went down to meet her and i'm positive that they'll do a great job reassuring her and taking her mind off it. however, i still wanna add my 2 cents worth.

(disclaimer: i'm on your side, despite what i'm about to "say")i know u have a trying relationship with your mother, but i can tell that she cares alot for u. we all know that, coz it is obvious. otherwise, why should she bother?

recently i realized(or mayb i just chose to hide it in my sub conscious before) that mothers are under trememdous stress. they have almost nobody to turn to. they can't tell their friends or even family for various reasons, lik to maintain the dignity of your fam, or their friends too have their own families to tend to, thus no time for them, or even that they have lost the friends they had. many reasons. my point is, they have nobody to turn to with their troubles, their complains of how their kids are breakng their hearts, how heavy the household workload is etc. truly, they only want the best for u, though they may not know the best way to communicate that to you. we'll never understand them fully until we become mothers ourselves. trust me, i found out the hard way(no, i'm not a mother now..). no matter what what caused the quarrels, the harsh words, the anger, there should never be a gruge. a child hurt a mother the deepest. (however that said, in your case, mayb it is more of a mother can HURT a child the deepest. physically...psychologically..)

Little India Function Hall
i wanna thank ms initial D(indra) for throwing such an elaborate party and for the invitation to it. though we stuck out like sore thumbs(3 crappy thumbs and 1 sick thumb) in the Little India Function Hall, we had great fun gorging ourselves with food, and almost killing our taste buds with the super spicy but definitely my fave foods..of coz there were so many pretty saris! omg..and indra u look so pretty THAT DAY. but i can tell you're a lil disappointed that our strength was less than the paltry 5 thumbs. however, we have condemned the TUAsters who are now ranked the LOWEST in the hierachy of STERS. yes, even lower than losers. so sorry we had to leave early, but we had a good reason which you are aware of. but still, you're the babe of the millenium.

1nite Stand
the bar was more patronised by the mature crowd, namely those in their 30s and foreigners, and some SPGs(i think). however, there were a few cute ang mohs, and some big fat ang mohs who ate glass while growing up(they think we can see through them). i think the snowball was delicious..so delicious that i finish it up in no time. and they ordered long island ice tea(can smell something fishy already) and of coz i drank the most, as usual. why? coz i like to drink.plain water, newater, coke, soya bean drink, soup..as long as its liquid, down it goes through my throat. so i end up being..BLUR...a lil' giddy..and so mellowed by the drinks that mr t managed to coax me to the dance floor..and i tink i went crazy..oh man...i really let myself go, and hopefully, i did not make myself look too much like a fool, and that i did not scrunch up my face or have any weird expressions( coz got this lady..her face was hilarious. and i apologize for laughing at her again and again...and ange..so shud u hor..t also!)

bak kut teh at somewhere along MS
was kinda hungry after the dancing and laughing, so we head down to eat bak kut teh..man..it was delicious, if not for my lousy braces. i couldn't tear off the meat, and had to cut using chopsticks and spoon, which results in me leaving carcasses on the table..damn..at least the soup was good..cant wait for my braces to be off...in about 1 year PLUS

jw..finally grad liao! cant wait to wear my own convocation robe..congrats mr teng! 

i'm in the photo too! not the dog... 

abit blur..but seriously funny..PJ look lik shes singing, and ben n rx looks enthralled by her performance..tong looks lik shes pulling ye's bra strap...min looks...SAD.and i look lik i am digging thru sy's hair..wahahaha 

2s20...Prince and 1 of the charmed ones in the reflection.. 

so many questions

the brink of insanity.

were you there that night?

or have you crossed it?

was how it was like for you all these years?

loneliness.indignity. hate?

sometimes things happen to make you question. question the fragility of the human mind. people always tells you to be strong. yet how much can a mortal mind take? how much can YOU take before it stretches over the treshold and breaks the thin menbrane which is fragility? how much can one take, for how long, before the mind breaks down in all its entirety and shuts down, lock, stock and barrel.

what defines insanity? is it forever, or just for a day? does it occur in a split second? it it just lying dormant in each of us just waiting for a trigger, for stress overload, deep sorrow, anger, suppression or fatigue, to thrust one's mind into it?

how do you know what's your threshold? how much can one take? 20 years? how do you define strength of mind? is it weakness to finally collapse after years of brutality? or are you expected to hold on..

words.

words frequently elude me, rendering me incoherent, rendering me incapable of expressing myself.

yet on certain days, which are certainly rare, i found an eloquency much unlike the usual me.

how come the day does not fall on the day of exam for law paper? damn!

why do i feel a sense of estrangement?


coz i care enough, to feel left out.

wafflessssss.

i'm having a horrible sore throat...not the type which is excruciating painful, but feels rather like something lodged in my throat...and i sound like a MAN...omg...haha...all thanks to the decadence i've been living in for the past few days..

went shopping with my buddy on tues and we managed to eat gelare waffles! my fave! but usually nobody eat with me la...anyway, its a little treat to cheer ourselves up. sometimes life deals you a hard blow, and you find it difficult to stand up again. but life must go on, and in time, you will feel normal again. and little treats to yourself along the way can make it easier. my buddy treated herself to another treat which is the paint splattered deim mini! omg i also want! but its like 45bucks! but if buy 2, then is 40 bucks..so who wan share? haha..i reallie love it, coz it IS the ONE skirt i''m looking for! grunge..veryvery faded..and so rock chick...haha though i probably look like a sick rock chick( quoting xx, coz we both look sickly rather than healthy n sporty..)..but i managed to buy some stuff too..feel so sian so must buy stuff..anyway, mango have sale ma. so first time in my life, i bought something from mango..

the next day, met up with juria lee, xx and my buddy and we went ice^3 to eat WAFFLES AGAIN..haha..after eating it, i fell so full and so sick of the sweetness..and somehow it feels like its stuck in my chest all the way from the stomach...but this weird potato xx says she feels very full but still hungry..??? she insists that though the waffles r stuck at her chest/throat, it didnt reach her stomach, so shes still hungry and want to eat chicken rice, and hopefully, it'll bypass the waffles in her throat to reach the stomach...what shit? wahahaha...we dont get it lo..anyway, the nua-ness in us means we will go to my house to NUA and mainly to wait for SUPRSTARS to start..we managed to feel like we r clubbing in my house due to incense in an air con room..we almost SMOKED to death..haha and my head was damn pain..i juz dont understand why but the 3 of them are HUNGRY and ate a big bowl of NOODLES..when i still feel the waffles at my throat..WHY? man..how i envy thin people..wahahha though juria lee insists that most of her weight comes from her BOOBS...yes yes i can SEE why she is so heavy...wahahahaha and now shes busty.

the stooopid dog next door has been barking and howling at NOTHING all day. i've observed it and it just stares at nothing and keeps barking at it! even in the day...omg...can anyone pls explain what he's seeing?

life is still good

dear b,

know u have been through a rough patch recently...but i want you to know that:

it is true that bf are not everything..

but love is to be cherished and nurtured

true friendships never die

yet absence makes the heart fonder

sometimes it is better to take a break

so that u can walk longer distances

it is possible to have a life! now is the time to catch up with friends u have neglected, read the books u have been missing out on, and basically, do those things which u haven done so in a long time...u can also ask me out *hinthint* but i am getting busier and busier...hope our tennis lessons can really commence!

do u wanna walawala? geddit?

this weekend was one of the best ever!

met up with my dear pltmates on sat..we caught initial D, which make me fall a little in love with jay chou(i disliked him before..) and with speed. only 4potatoes went for the movie, which is my buddy, jurialee and ton and i! haha..but so happy coz another 3potatoes xx,py n kim joined us for dinner. we diedie squeezed all 7 of us around 1 table at long johns and commenced our fave hobby: eat and gossip. haha then we faster pia to holland V for a gig at walawala! as usual we were there late to meet chel and had to stand behind the pillar which i always stand behind..diao..ton,kim and py left early and the rest of us wanted leave later..BUT thanks to 2 weird potatoes, juria n xx who wan to catch the last bus/train, we left juz before the start of the next set..chel, the driver was hungry and we decided to eat at chompchomp! yay! so near my house. but the 2 weird potatoes also hungry so tag along to eat. in the end, they had to take cab with midnight charge..so diao lo..anyway buddy, chel n i wanted go my house chitchat abit more then the same 2 weird potatoes who wanted to pia home ALSO wan to come. haha..and chel got to chat with her best fren: mrs lee. so the bottomline is, this is a vast difference from the last gathering, and i reallyreally had a great time with a group of girls whom i think of as sisters since about 1 decade ago..it is ever so nice to go out, have fun together and catch up on gossips..the most distinct memory of my pltmates is that we always have lots of laughter together..and i hope will still do even after a few decades..

heard on power98 that there'll be an oasis showcase by EIC on sun, so i decided to jio my fellow live band fanatic to walawala! yes i know it is like i LOVE walawala but it is juz a coincidence that i went down 2 days in a row ok..BUT there are a few cute guys there la..hahaha *slurp* anyway, i must say, the music was really great, and this time we found a table though it was right at the front so i can only stare at their er...legs...haha and sh, ange n i were "ärguing" over which vocalist was better. of coz the gullible girls in them were won over by the chinese guy who i must admit, is quite charming, but i really prefer Ray, the indian guy, who has better vocals(in my opinion) and he can sing at top speed! he did 1 week by barenaked ladies and everyone was blown away! he did it in record speed and he did NOT stumble over any words at all..and he also did First Love! oh man...culture shock haha..an indian singing jap..but it was great, though i felt sleepy/giddy after 2 frozen margeritas and 1 gin tonic only..so lousy. but somehow after a while, i "woke" up..and drank another gin tonic..coz we played some game..hmm...i'm weird haha..

and i also discovered that ange hid something from me! to bad for u troy let the cat out of the bag and spilled that u 2 went chompchomp and never ask me! nvr ask me nvm..still nvr tell me..hmm..must have something to hide..

complain, i must

i'm in need of a little pity and a little love..having the worst pms ever...my emotions were so so so down over the last 1 week, and i must apologize if i said anything hurtful or vented my anger/irritatedness/depression at you. though u probably did something not very right but does not justify my intense reaction..so i am sorry.

and finally when IT came, i was so relieved and felt that the gloom has been lifted! however, the relief lasted all of 10min before i start to feel the huge surge of pain in my uterus. i'm trying to be scientific here. and if i am not wrong, the unbearable pain, which render me unable to walk without bending over, is caused by the shrinking of the uterus walls. therefore, it must be shrinking really rapidly today! omg, i swear i almost died of pain. whywhywhy! this is one of the million dollar question which will get no answer no matter how many women ask. therefore, since there is nothing i can do to make it stop, i can only complain. and that explains this entry. haaa..tat was lame.

friends vs bf/gf

i was chatting to ange and the topic of friends vs boyfriends came up. both of us noted that most friends who became attached tend to slowly drift out of our lives. is this a case of zhong4 se4 qing1 you3? are friends really less important than bf/gf?

why is it so difficult to take out a tiny fraction of your free time to meet up with friends, rather than devoting all that time to your other half? is he/she really The One? Are friends just something to occupy your time while you fish about for the ideal mate? And when you found someone special, somehow friends seem less important. This is an ironic school of thought considering that if you were to hit a rough patch in your relationship, it is the neglected friend who will lend you a shoulder to cry on.

the thought of being a zhong4 se4 qing1 you3 fiend truly terrified ange and i, and we vow never to succumb to such selfishness. dear friends, if ever i become such, pls give me a slap in the face to wake me up.

too much to ask.

what is the point of raving about the 10th year anniversary of our friendship when you can't even take 1 full day out to meet up?

what is the point of meeting up if people came late and left early?

why is it that some people can take the time to plan a gathering yet the rest don't even other to respond?

surely it takes 2 to clap..
surely it requires a reaction to an action for a friendship to last..
surely it is not too much to ask, this coming from an old friend..

is this my pms talking or a daring stab at the truth?

i regret

a big disappointment. obviously, most of them just don't care. don't sense any effort there. i shouldn't have foregone the Ubin adventure. i regret. why put in effort when others don't give a shit?

i am selfish?

i was lying in bed, desperately trying to fall asleep, and basically, minding my own business when i faintly smell baking smells. as i lie in bed, i think to myself: hmmm my bro is going on another of his food rampages again. and this time, its about 2am in the morning. however, the smells gradually start to smell alot like chao ta smells..something smells really burnt. so i pia out of bed and what transverse next is as goes:

me: eh wei an! your food is burnt is it! (standing juz outside the kitchen but cant see inside)

wei an: no la. i'm cooking. (while siting in front of his computer, and his back is to the kitchen)

me: ya obviously right. but something smells burnt lo.

w: told u i'm baking something already lo. i'm baking i'm baking i'm baking i'm baking...

me: ok lo whatever. (irritated with the piece of shit called wei an)

w: (walking towards the kitchen) shit!

me: (poking my head into the kitchen) wa lau! alot of smoke lo! OMG!

w: stop talking and help can don't be selfish.'

me: thought you're BAKING? wa lau, told u burnt already still insist. quick, get out of the smoke. and now i am SELFISH?

w: its not my fault lo. its the oven.

me: (closed the kitchen door) don't open the oven....

w: (opened the oven) u triyng to kill me is it! i was inside lo

me: there is ANOTHER exit. i was trying to keep the smoke out of the house lo. don't be stupid.

w: you're very selfish lo.

me: ??

brother bear.

went watch batman with my bro yesterday. yup, u saw right. my brother. blood bro. haha no, i was not trying to bond with him, we have enough bonding at home, coz we quarrel and piss each other off enough. da shi ai, ma shi teng right. anyway, it was q enjoyable, and we ate subway together. no, actually, i ate, though it was kinda difficult due to my bite prop, so i had to tear off little piece by little piece. and my bro swallowed. coz i dun remember seeing him bite into it at all, before i saw it disappear down his throat.haha. talk about opposites. anyway, back to the point.

after about 18 years of living with him, i managed to dig out a little bit more info from him. abt his likes, and the girls. haha. i realized that throughout our childhood, i dun really know him. i only know him the way he behaves at home, but not how he treats his friends, and outsiders. i was never the great big sister, but more like the younger sister. i guess he looks after me more than i look after him. u can say i am proud of him, of the decent prson he's become, of his passion for his dream but which i will never admit to him. seriously, i don't really know what i want to say, just that i am glad that i have a bro.until the next tme he pisses me off anyway.

love

after hearing the laments of my friends for ages, i always think: why is it so difficult to find someone to share with and love?

i know of people who can love but cannot be with each other. i know of people who seeks love all their lives( albeit an as yet short life) yet only to be plague by loneliness. some people seek the love which is mutual, one who is right for him or her, while fighting off those who they love them, but whom they do not love.

here i am wondering all about love, yet is "love" what i should be talking about? how about "like" ? how do you define when "like" become "love" and how do you know when u actually fall in "love"? do all couples truly love each other, or do they just lik each other enough to spend the rest of their lives together, in amiable companionship?

a thousand questions may float in the abyess that is my mind, yet they can never be answered. i wish my friends find their happiness, whether sooner or later. a word of comfort from a friend: your time will come. and till then, will we all wait patiently, and enjoy our lives thoroughly.

all time low.

i'm an island. by my definition, an island is always alone, surrounded by nothingness. doesn't it amaze you that one can feel so alone even in the midst of other people? i definitely felt this way today, for 4 hours. i felt so depressed that the usual me who loves to laugh, cannot even manage a smile at jokes. this is vastly different from the aftermath of senior camp. many times i pretend to yawn, to mask the tears in my eyes. the ultimate fear of rejection coupled with loneliness and indifference.

sometimes, you try your best to your job well, yet you meet with a brick wall, and doors slam shut right in your face. yet you have to answer to the top, and in the meantime, meet with repulsion from below. what should you do? what CAN you do? i really hate rejection. i don't take rejection well. mayhap that is the reason why i can be aloof at times, and maybe explain why i have such a fierce face. and i took it personally when my calls get ignored.

the responsibility of calling people up for canvassing poses a stress on me which no one can explain. i fear that i offend them. i fear they give me crap excuses which i cannot rebut. i fear i cannot get a single person to agree. i fear my incessant calls irritate. i fear i cannot answer to the top. so many fears...so much stress. i guess i have a low stress threshold.

what z said was true. different people react differently to situations. some people tend to have a worse view of things, which could be due to character, past experiences or impressions. sometimes we must take criticisms in our stride, and continue to work hard towards what we believe in and committed in from the beginning. and i thank both of you, for making me feel a whole lot better, for making me see the light at the end of this soon-to-end tunnel.


ps. to my dear friends (c, v and a) who noticed my super duper black face..thanks, and to my darling ange too..thanks

special news report.

early this morning, rubbish pickers along the banks of the kallang river discovered a pot of curry chicken in a cardboard box. they stirred the curry and saw a piece of meat which resembles a human feet and promtply called the police. after initial investigations, the police discovered that the curry is cooked using human and tons and tons of POTATO. the body parts are believed to belong to a young woman. if the public has any information, pls do not hesitate to inform the police at 1900-curry-chicken.

do u wan this to happen to u?

i overcame.

i cant lose out to them. not to a bunch of senior citizens! no! i must! i must run, and i must keep up! weird..i don;t feel the strain on my stamina, nor do i feel the usual tiredness on my legs. we ran and ran, and we all stopped at an unevenly laid brick wall. on goes the harnesses and i took a tentative step up. it was different from typical rock climbing walls, as you are only able to gain a foothold on the 1 inch of brick jutting out. it is near impossible to gain a firm grip. but yet up i climb, slowly, with my heart thumping loudly, resonating in the cavity of my body. for a moment, i felt myself sliding off my precarious perch. i tensed my limbs and pulled my body back close to the wall, and i continue. as i reached the top, i was stuck. i have no idea how to climb up. yet as i fade into consciousness, i knew....i did it. oh yes, what a dream. a dream of victory.

happy news

congrats cj!

so honoured i am number 2.

may this time be the one.

numb.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

every step that I take is another mistake to you

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to doi
s be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

every step that I take is another mistake to you
and every second I waste is more than I can take

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be

by linkin park.

ole timid me.

many times i realized that i am the type of person who actually EXPECTS protection from others. whether is it from my parents, my little brother or friends alike..

i recall a time in secondary school where my best friend (who, by the way, is german) rescued me from the bullying remarks of a girl, and thereupon, she officially became my best friend. another time, i was having an excruciating conversation with a very strong minded classmate where halfway, i found myself yearning for the appearance of my best friend to extricate me from the delicate situation.

however, despite the many times i realise my timidity at standing up for myself, i have never consciously change for the better. this said, i wouldn't be surprised that this acknowledgment of the fact will serve no purpose other than an admission of one of my faults.

ode to 2s20

while we were gathered around having steamboat, my roomie said that actually sometimes, we do treasure class gatherings. this evident in the efforts made at meeting up as often as we can, especially during school holidays, though we are not close to everyone in the class.

even in jc, we tend to stick to respective cliques, but we always stay as a class. during recess, we'll all sit together at a table and sometmes order chicken rice all around, and drink the soup dry. i guess no matter how bored the guys look or how bitchy the girls get, we are all sentimental beings who gather for old time's sake. and to that, we'll toast, and hope that this sentimentality never dies.

announcement.

oh yes, i just remembered. at the request of my best friend, i MUST make this anouncement.

my best friend is german. betcha didn't know!

w.t.f

for those who know me, will know that i do not have penchents for vulgarities unless the situation really really calls for it. however, WTF!

i was supposed to buy my own lunch, and due to my disability to chew (bite prop in my mouth), i can only consume easily digestable and soft foods. so i decided to buy cai fan, and discovered that the favourite stall is closed today. so i trot over to the other end of my neighbourhood to the other cai fan stall. well, it is now WATSONS..so i decided to check out the malay/indian coffeeshop, but they somehow, seem to sell only MEAT. why..nevermind. i decided to survive on waffles at prima deli's. guess what? they dont sell waffles! since when!?!?'ok so how about chicken pie? NO? WTF!!!

travels.

had dinner with lun zi on sunday..she brought her laptop and showed my pics of her travels in US and man! i love canada! haha...actually, i liked canada coz of the cold and the impression that they welcome non caucasians more, however, after what lun zi told me, i confirm it. i will prefer canada over prejudiced USA. ok, mayb i am being too judgemental, coz i am after all, only basing my impression over the encounters of 1 individual, but this individual is my best friend! we think likewise in many things, i tell u, and i defintely felt pissed just by listening to her accounts!

they were treated like prisoners in this airport. they were rudely and roughly "served" by the custom officers..it is plainly a sign of racism, as those on the plane were all chinese and they were spoke to as if they were deaf. i'm not even sure if they were spoken to at all. more likely shouted at. and did u know that you are not allowed to lock your luggages coz the immiration officers had the right to perform a random check on the contents? oh man, how do you know they are not thieves? and whats more, if you actually defy that and locked your luggage, they are allowed to DESTROY your luggage? i mean, what does the word destroy makes you think of? bomb. explosion. the luggage quarantined and then a robot sent to decimate it? loss of human rights vs paranoia..

after her accounts, i decided that i shall pay canada a visit once in my lifetime (and forgoing the trip to her neighbour in case i got my perosnal belongings bombed up and my ear drums burst) and the magnificient niagara falls. and that is my 2nd travel plan after i toured europe with my fellow backpackers (present strength, me and lun zi..haha) on my graduation..

many firsts.

over the weekend, i attended Havoc senior camp I 05, and had a really great time.

i guess i am the type of person who doesn't enjoy camp, coz i hate being unable to bath properly, being dirty and sticky most of the time, mingling of sweat and god knows whatever with other strangers, being stuck in the midst of strangers for a few days and mostly, making a fool of myself when i am desperately trying to impress new friends and forge friendships..

however, this time, i decided to have a good time (though its all seniors and we more or less know each other) and give all out in trying out the games my fellow havocers came up with, andi must admit, it was not too bad, and there were many firsts..

the first time i...kissed a girl. or 2 girls actually, and multiple times at that..oh man, have i lost my innocence..

the first time i...got dragged by a guy 2 heads taller across the length of half a basketball court..he didnt really realised i was desperately clutching the flag until we were halfway across, and i only let go coz i laughed till my hands went soft. shou ruan. and obviously, nobody let me forget that incident throughout the camp.

the first time i...went for supper with havocers though we were all dead beat. however, all seniors came, and only 2 freshies were game enough..young ple these days..juz cant take it like we old ple can..haha..at a ripe old age of 21. but i had fun, coz we were gossiping abt the forbiddens, who can pass on a chance to sit at the back of the lorry..how windy..

the first time i...am i such close proximity with any insects of any kind. we had to push mealworms using ice cream sticks across guy's tummies..obviously, i chicken out most of the way..

the first time i...defied the law of physics...i threw a ping pong ball just beyong a box, and it miraculously bounced back into the box. thank you whoever is helping me out up there.

i wonder..

i wonder..

is it coz i am so suppressed and the need to spill my guts juz burst forth without any sign of possible stoppages?

in other words, am i so deprived of the opportunities to talk abt my day(or week in my case) that each time i log in to my blog, i juz chatter and chatter no stop?

i took a good look at my blog and realized that it really turns me off, to read tons and tons of words, and gaining no insight into me. my life, my real thoughts and feelings..

i shall now make a resolution to write less. and less narrative entries but more insightful pieces.

who am i kidding? i am juz a talkative little chit who is only skin deep.wad the hell man..haha.talk abt contradiction.

shopping spree

spoils frm orchard: being the nice sis, i bought the t shirt for my bro...cool shirt rite!

spoils on thurs bugis day 2 

my spoils on wed, bugis day 1

prezzies from ange's KL trip! love the bracelet! so raWK chick! haha 

i am long winded. read only if u r v free or u miss me ALOT

the last week was a killer for me, i was so exhausted, both due to work and play..and thus lack of sleep.and it seem so long ago, i really couldnt remember what i did exactly..and was too busy to blog..hai..tok tok tok chiang!

tues: had ge lesson, and supposed to go for havoc meeting. but was informed tat we will be doing flyers distribution and postpone the meeting to wed. what the hell? wed i cant! oh man...anyway, since ge ended 730, i pia back hall to catch a ride on the lorry to pasir ris. it was a longlong ride from the west to the east, and since we sat behind the lorry, our faces were numb after being smack non stop by the wind for 45min. still, it is an enjoyable ride...i juz love riding on lorries..well, seng and i were partnered up and allocated 12 blocks to distribute flyers DOOR TO DOOR! diao..we did for like 3 hours and only finished about 9 blocks..could hav been faster if we took the stairs haha...the lift reallie slow..and we were worried ple will kill us coz we take lift to go 1 floor down.wahaha...anyway, i was going home, so george drove the 1st batch of us home, and half of havoc sent me home to my door step...hehe...so honoured!

wed: had to remove my stitches at the dentist bright and early..i was late! had to take cab lo, coz was about to rain so thank goodness i did.at that point of time, i didnt know that i will be taking cab ALOT for that week! argh! can practically see my money grow wings n fly away..anyway, met ange after dental and collcted our Spirits tickets..and its SHOPPING time at bugis! so exciting! and i bought quite alot of things, and mostly at cheaper than boutique prices...well, this is only the 2nd retail therapy i had since the beginning of the sem..not so sinful ma..managed to buy a pair of sandal which really resemble birkenstocks..coz i am poor, any sponsors to get me real birkenstock? also bought this sexy camisole top..and this cardigan..and this very very nice belt! haha..so exciting..anyway, i did all this shopping in a couple of hours only, coz we had to pia back ntu for ge lessons...and after that, we were supposed to borrow VCDs from our tutor and catch up on the lessons we missed..and the plan is to stay over at ange's..

thurs: there no lessons today, and somehow, only ange and i out of the whole class, didnt know that yesterday was the last lesson! hmm..are we missing something? anyway, we went down bugis (yes, again..) to find the Chinese Opera Institute so that we can borrow VCDs...we did that, and on our way back to OG, ange decided to give the wrong directions to an old lady..haha..she pointed her to another way, which is the slightly further route, though we are going in the same direction! haha...all the way ange keep trying to hide from her...haha...hilarious...anyway we continue to shop at bugis..and once again, managed to buy 2 pairs of earrings, 1 pair of working pants which will be very handy for PA, and this pretty yellow bag..we split up the VCDs and went our seperate ways home. i reached home just in time to get some food and a bath, then dad drove me to admiralty...to give out flyers..AGAIN! this time for DnD..and thank goodness, its mail box to mail box, not door to door..phew..unfortunately, there were some payment problems, so got to stop and resume again next time..

fri: ange came over, watched the VCD and went bugis yet agan, to return the VCDs and to borrow another 2..since we are aboslutely sick of bugis by now, we went to CAN cafe and chilled out, and discovered that their calamari is q delicious..haha..drooldrool..anyway, we had a little brainstorm and i suggested asking the rest out for a drink or sumthin..since its fri night! so after the play, we met at clementi..as usual, the most on one is Troy..jw had sumthin on, CJ refused to go anywher except hall, and sh....mia..haha...refused to reply my sms..so ended up meeting troy only, to stay over at ange's..we bought some alcohol at clementi and found a bank passbook. being the model citizens that we are, we refused to abandoned it, and after stressing for q some time, we decided to juz push it throught the gap under the bank door..haha..so we head to her place, and i started to feel miserable..it was kinda weird btwn troy and i coz he''s angry with me, and wile ange was bathing, i tried to start a conversation. twice. but did not work so we were in excruciating silence till ange came out. so ange n troy did most of the talking n having fun while i was on msn..and when i got sick of msn, i juz watched them having fun. i couldn't miss cj and jw more at hat point in time. haha..

sat: anyway troy left early in the morn, and i hung ard till after lunch. i hate going home from ange's place..mayb coz the thought of changing bus then train then bus again reallie puts me off. so i decided to eat cheaptake cab home. unfortunately, on the way home, ange ask me to retuen the VCDs..argh! and the stupid driver refuses to go town area. so i went home n bath and got to rush out to COI and then from there, to heartland mall to meet ms wang for her bday dinner..HAPPY 21st Huijun! haha after dinner and some ice-cream, i gotta rush to tampines for havoc canvassing..i was the 2nd to reach, and had to wait 45 mins for the rest..why do i even bother reaching early? well, the worst ting was Z scolding us for being an hour late...well, thanks alot man. so my grp, cj, stanley n i were allocated our blocks and we started to do our job. v coincidentally, we were allocated the block cj's ex live in..hmm, and all the way can tell that cj is feeling kinda...down...muz be the memories and regrets again...and there is nothin i can do to help. feel kinda helpless too..after we pia finish the allocated blocks, cj and i pia down to val's bday party! phew, sat is a busy day..but we had fun at val's party. they waited for us to cut the cake, then we ate some yummy food and split into 2 groups to play mahjong and tai di. As my good frens know, i hav a bad memory and i juz cant rem the sequences like royal flush and full house..so i declared that is suck at dai di, and jon decided to giv me a refresher course. as it turns out, i did not lose even once for all the games we played. what can i say? beginner's luck ma...but jon was lik saying that i still pretend i duno how to play...hahaha...i reallie don't! anyway, we had to check out at 10am tmr, so we went to bed. coz val and i insist on sleeping o the outside, cj gotta sleep btwn us, and promptly blast us to death with his snoring..zzZzz

sun: we woke up, check out and decided to catch a movie.after breakfast at BK, we sat in the cinema and tried our best not to fall asleep. we watched Inside deep throat, but it was all interviews! and only the thought of the $9.50 i forked out made me stay awake. after mvie we walked around orchard and i realised that going out with the giants felt really good. they reallie cleared a path for me to walk! haha, and i reallie couldnt see much since they also blocked the front view.

mon-thurs: had ge exam on wed, and there are a ton to memorize, and got to miss havoc meeting..again! well, no choice, i got to clear this ge..anyway, it was a big relieved after the paper, and ange and i went orchard..shopping..again! the next day, had a mini and illegal class gathering..haha apparently, we did not inform quite a few ple! but we had fun, coz watched madagascar which was hilarious..and had long john for dinner, followed by coffee at coffee express, and followed by rochor tau huay..hmm...we juz keep eating..but i think we had a good time, and i realized i hv nvr chatted with tholmas b4..haha..and yes, now i believe that he really is crappy..had a good time with pj and the guys..too bad the rest couldnt make it. but i guess it is a good thing, coz a smaller group means more chance to chat to everyone and it is definitely more fun! hopefully, more ple will turn up for pj's bday next week..

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